Ryan & I started feeling the push towards adoption many years ago. We felt God stirring in our hearts about this in a very real way since the beginnings of our relationship but always assumed it meant “one day”…like one day much further down the road. You know, when things were more “settled”, more established. We would have more time, more money. Our girls were still very young, practically babies, and financially we were broke. We had too much debt, too little income and fought for side jobs to bring in just enough for us to not wake up to a low balance email from the bank. We felt trapped, small and didn’t see the possibilities of getting ahead, let alone bringing other kiddos into our family. So, honestly, we didn’t think too much into the adoption idea. However, God is always bigger than any excuse or any circumstance. His power is revealed most great when ours is most pathetic.
A few amazing years past those heavy years, we saw Him work in ways we could never take credit for. That is another story in itself. We quickly realized that God was stripping away any excuse we had. A great business opportunity came into our life and rocked our world, thankfully leaving us in a better position with our schedules as well as our finances. We were able to pay off our massive amounts of credit card. Our girls were getting older. They started talking about how they wanted a “baby brother.” Ryan & I both quit our full-time jobs and decided to work from home with our new-found business and pursue our list of dreams. One of them, adoption.
Fast forward to the Fall of 2012. One Sunday evening on a road trip back home from Austin, we were listening to sermon that our cousin Aaron Ivey had preached weeks before at his church, The Austin Stone. The topic of the series? Adoption. God spoke loud and clear to us that evening, right there in our car. It was time. Overwhelmed by the reality of the gospel and our own adoption into His family, we were brought to tears and ready to embark on this journey. He made a magnificent path for us the past few years and there was no reason to wait for “one day” anymore. That day had arrived.
We began our research into agencies and officially and nervously submitted a pre-application in January 2013. This included general info about us and basically gets you into an initial “help you figure out which route to take” kind of class. We went to an informational meeting, clueless. We left with a clear direction of our route. Domestic infant from Texas of any race. Even making this decision made things feel more real. It’s amazing how God starts to give you this unexplainable love for this unborn child even at this phase. We loved #babyDixon…not knowing who he was or when he would be created. Taking this step just felt right. We were getting closer but little did we know we were still years away.